Dear you,
Yes, you. If you were ever in my past then, this is about you. Not every single last one of you. I know this doesn't apply to every single person in my life.
There are some of you that I want to address:
To the girl who wanted to beat me up when I was in seventh grade,
I have no idea what your name is. I DO remember that you wanted to have a fight with me after school. I only recall it being about something happening in gym class. I have no idea why you were so angry with me.
I remember the ride home on the bus...
To every one who was on that bus:
There was a lot of chatter that day. I don't know how many of you knew what was happening. I DO know some of you did. You were carrying on about this. You were making bets. You were mocking me.
Some of you exited the bus with me and this girl. You were excited and ready for this fight. Many of you chanted, "Fight, fight!"
I wonder, did you know how frightened I was? Did you know that not only did NOT want to be hurt. Did you know I didn't want to hurt any one else?
WHY? Why?
Why did some of you do nothing at all? Why did you walk away? Why did you want to watch? Why did you cheer? Why did you laugh at me?
I came away from that unharmed mind you.. But I will NEVER forget all of you who abandoned me that day. You showed how much you were NOT my friends. You showed me how very alone I really was in the world. You showed me.. You told me in that time how you really are.
YES!!! I know you. I may not know exactly who you were but I know some who would be riding that bus to Dana Indiana that day. You rode the bus with me often. This day was no different.
I want to tell you how disappointed I am in you. I want to tell you how angry I am. You left me.. You wanted to see me harmed. You cheered it on. You left. You did nothing.
I remember you all..this day. I hate every thing you did and did not do... I am hurt. I do NOT forgive your actions. I do NOT forgive your inactions. You could have done something!
Yes. We were just kids.. Still.. I know how some of you KNEW BETTER!
You guys were never my friends. You never were.. And you never will be!!!!!!!
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