Sunday, January 29, 2017

Extremely stressed

I'm tired. I don't believe I am of any benefit to anyone I work with. I feel very unappreciated, underpaid, and mostly more of a pain than I am "worth" anything.
I don't feel like I am of any value to my employer. I don't know what or how the parents or kids I work with feel about what I do. I seldom get any appreciation for what I do.
I have felt such compassion for the children I have worked with.
I have stood by and watched this route from day one. I have not chosen to speak out but, I am finished with all of that.
Because I can not disclose any specific information. I will only disclose facts based on my own personal experience.
Children in my care have been bussed quite a distance to school. This is due to the cooperative special education agreement.
I have been a witness to children getting picked up early for the departure from school by the bus I have been working on. We pick up children at 2:15 pm. School doesn't let out until 3pm.
Recently, the route has expanded. I have been a witness to children getting to school at 9 am. They sometimes missed breakfast. I was not going to get paid minimum wage. I believe I am the least paid per hour aid that this company has. I do not have the facts about that particular issue but I certainly suspect it.
It doesn't seem like anyone cares about these issues. I have spoken out about them to my employer. I have been reprimanded for commucating to the parents that their children had rights to equal time at school. I had a student on the bus for 1 and 20 minutes or more depending on any issues we might encounter. I have timed these occurrences to get the facts accurate.
There are multiple issues with the way the children are transported to and from school, their time at school, and many other.
I have spoken to the state of Indiana about my personal pay.
I feel like I am doing this all alone with no back up and no one to fight with me. I feel that the system is messed up. Something needs to give.
I WILL say that I did get a pay raise. It only reflects minimum wage. I still do not believe I am getting equal pay compared to the other aids.
The corporation has been "working on" the route. This was to reduce the time on the bus. I do NOT know how this is working out at the current moment. 
This whole thing left me extremely stressed. I fell ill for several days. My doctor told me to take some time away. I have done this.  
I am just tired of all this. I DO have the right to free speech. I am NOT divulging any personal information about the issues.
I have been extremely stressed out concerning this. I fell very ill. I ended up taking time off. The time away has been a benefit.
I hope someone reads this to understand that my endeavor has NOT been about trying to stir up trouble. It DOES have everything to do with how much I have come to care about these special needs children.
There are too many people not speaking out. I don't see anyone questioning how much time special education students spend at school. I doubt parents are advised how much time their children spend on the bus. I wish someone cared enough about equal
Pay for employees. I don't see anything changing. 
This is not about me or my job. I have turned in my two weeks notice. I could care less about that. My passion has always been about the children.What about them? What about their rights?
I have had others comment about this issue but they are not coming forward with their concerns. There needs to be more than one voice. I doubt it will ever come.
I am and always will be committed to loving the special needs people. It is my passion.
I hope that the route has been fixed. I hope this has been resolved. I hope whoever takes my position gets paid equally compared to the other aids on a per hour rate.
believe my pay reflects equal to that of other aids on busses to reflect pay per hour.
Ihaave resigned my position as abus aid. I hope someone will speak out about the whole busing, school location issues for special education students. There are big problems here......