Anxiety

Dealing with anxiety takes a whole lot of energy. I am hoping that EMDR will lessen some of that although at this point in time I think it is unlike anything will ease its grip.
It was foggy today and hard to see vehicles driving. Big trucks have terrified me for a very long time...I link it to my dads death. I especially don't like them honking their horn either at me or by me. It sends chills right through me. I imagine my dads death a thousand times this way. This is the only way I have. I was only told many times over like a broken record.. "Your dad died in a truck accident".
I am uneasy about a trip to the dentist too. A hurting mouth.. Sends me to thinking about someone I know who died from having their teeth removed. Every time my mouth hurts like it is.. I struggle. I may not be able to change the "inevitable" but, I sure do stress about some things.
Mostly, I feel like a wacked out freak for having so many "little things" bother me. Candles, mirrors, trucks, dentists, showers, bad weather... And this is just the tip of some of the things that "trigger" me.
Most people won't notice either because I put up such a good front.
Think of me today.. Foggy weather, the dentist.. And yucky all around.